*Year of the Dragon 2012

Luis and I are both Dragon babies! We will have a Dragon baby this year!!!!

Years of The Dragon: 1904 1916 1928 1940 1952 1964 1976 1988 2000 2012

The Dragon is one of the most powerful and lucky Signs of the Chinese Zodiac. Its warm heart makes the Dragon's brash, fiery energy far more palatable. This is a giving, intelligent and tenacious Sign that knows exactly what it wants and is determined to get it. Dragons possess a certain natural, charming charisma that ensures they can always influence their peers and often find themselves the center of attention in social situations. This Sign is truly blessed, too; Dragons are considered to be very lucky in love! The Dragon's friends are always keen to hear what this firebrand has to say and when it comes to dispensing advice, the Dragon has the floor.

Its ego can get in the Dragon's way, but even so, this larger-than-life creature has a knack for initiating projects and keeping the troops motivated. According to Dragons, it's their natural born right to lead the way -- because who else could do it so surely and so well? As lucky as they are, Dragons have a good chance of achieving considerable material wealth during their lifetimes, although it isn't mere money that's this Sign's main motivation. Power is what the Dragon wants and truly believes it deserves. Dragons are quite the opportunists, forever searching for ways in which to consolidate their considerable power. Contrary to all this strength and fire, a weakened Dragon is a sad sack, a creature that refuses to take defeat with even a modicum of grace.

The role of leader is the only one the Dragon wants, the better from which to give orders and be king of the hill. They make solid leaders, too, knowing instinctively what needs to be done to stay on top. Crossing the Dragon is never a good idea -- this beast can singe! A valuable life lesson for this clever creature would be to absorb the principles of flexibility, compassion and tolerance. Being high and mighty can serve to inspire others, but it also keeps Dragons from living their lives to the fullest. If Dragons can learn to balance their quest for success with an appreciation for the little things, their life will be more than worthwhile.

*5th and final round of IVF to start!

Oh aunt Flo you have kept me waiting long enough! You were cruel in giving me this little sliver of hope that I may have gotten pregnant naturally and just when I think that I actually could be, you slap me in the face! You were 9 days late, now that's just mean!

On a good and positive note! I have called Dr. Werlin and I have my baseline ultrasound and day 2 labs Friday morning! I will stay positive this time around!

*Clearing things up....

I think that I might need to clear something up. It appears that I may have scared a couple people by posting that song Broken by Lifehouse. I just want to be 100% clear, I am not pulling away nor am I walking away from my faith and I am not mad at God. That song was something that I was feeling in my darkest hour of hurt. Losing that pregnancy was worse than seeing a negative pregnancy test. Just wanted to reassure those around me:)

I am very much looking forward to this last IVF cycle. I am giving it my full attention. Bring on all of the madness! This time I will stay positive, keep all unwanted drama out of my life, and give all of my worries to the Lord. Acupuncture here I come!

Infertility has been a weight on my back and something that I have struggled with for the last 16 years. Its a chapter in my life that I want to close. Its just something that I can not go through anymore. Will I ever get over this? NO. But with 2 IUI's and 5 IVF's I can say that I gave it 100% and tried with everything in my might. We may be out of money but I will spend the rest of my life raising awareness, continue to write to congress about changing medical policies and supporting all women out there struggling with this silent disease.

*My beautiful little Mia!

Just reflecting on how much I love being a mom:) I am so lucky to be able to work from home and be with her every minute of every day. I am so blessed! She is my world, and I couldn't picture my life without her. These are the pictures that my sister took of Mia around xmas time. Mia and her cousin Lanie had a blast trying to out pose each other LOL! What hams we have for daughters!

*The trio is back together!!!!!

Little Rylan got to come home today!!!!

*Latest pic of Rylan

My sister just sent me this one:) look at those eyes she is too cute I can't wait to hold her!!!

*Cant get enough of babies!!!!

Spent all day Saturday at my sisters again. I love these babies! Good news is Rylan may get to come home tomorrow and join her brother and sister:) yay can't wait!!!! Im sure I will be going out to see my sister for a while now:)

*So in love!!!!! Another Dr. Werlin success story:)

Got to spend New Years eve with two of the triplets! Hayden and Evan got to come home yesterday! I miss them already:( can't wait for their sister Rylan to be able to join them soon! They look so much bigger in the pictures and they are so tiny in person. I was afraid to hold them at first but quickly got over it lol!