I think that I might need to clear something up. It appears that I may have scared a couple people by posting that song Broken by Lifehouse. I just want to be 100% clear, I am not pulling away nor am I walking away from my faith and I am not mad at God. That song was something that I was feeling in my darkest hour of hurt. Losing that pregnancy was worse than seeing a negative pregnancy test. Just wanted to reassure those around me:)
I am very much looking forward to this last IVF cycle. I am giving it my full attention. Bring on all of the madness! This time I will stay positive, keep all unwanted drama out of my life, and give all of my worries to the Lord. Acupuncture here I come!
Infertility has been a weight on my back and something that I have struggled with for the last 16 years. Its a chapter in my life that I want to close. Its just something that I can not go through anymore. Will I ever get over this? NO. But with 2 IUI's and 5 IVF's I can say that I gave it 100% and tried with everything in my might. We may be out of money but I will spend the rest of my life raising awareness, continue to write to congress about changing medical policies and supporting all women out there struggling with this silent disease.
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