A new chapter in my life

Dear infertility, I am finally saying goodbye to you for good! You have knocked me down, made me cry, squashed my dreams, pissed me off, took years away from me, put me in debt, took a tole on my marriage and body and almost stole my faith! It was a very long hard time in my life. I obsessed over you daily. You made me go through 13 years of negative pregnancy tests, 2 IUI's and 5 IVF's. Fortunately for me, after having a quick pity party I would dust myself off and get back on track for the next round.
I looked you in the eye over and over again and was lucky enough to kick your ass! YOU DID NOT WIN!

You did teach me some things though. I learned that I am a lot stronger than I ever gave myself credit for. You made my marriage stronger than it has ever been because we worked together through this horrible time instead of growing apart. You also gave me the courage to share my story with everyone, instead of being ashamed of it and for that I am grateful.

I am now blessed with my two beautiful miracle baby girls and I am letting you go. You will not hurt me anymore. I refuse to give you any more of my life. I am finally at peace! - sigh :)

I will now dedicate the rest of my life to help educate the world about infertility! I will also continue to be there for my fertility sisters through their journeys to motherhood, and last but not least I will continue to help women all over the world reading my blog to give them that little bit of hope that they are looking for while researching on the web. Sadly there are so many women who have not been as lucky as myself, and I will continue to pray for them.

Although I am happy to put an end to my infertility journey I will never forget the pain it has caused me over the years. I will never fully be over the fact that my dream of having a big family was cut short due to the financial burden and torture IVF has been on my body.

As 2013 starts, I am very much looking forward to this new chapter in my life. I am enjoying my daughters and together we are going to make many memories and live this beautiful blessed life of ours to the fullest!